[ oh. he didn't expect that question, at all. but he supposed he wasn't super surprised either, he wasn't the only one making this sort of revelation it seemed. ]
um, it was... kind of a lot of things? i mean, firstly i think i liked both for a long time but i was in like
super deep denial and i needed to get over that first. growin up, ur told its not rite and stuff, u know? but like... well i cant go into detail since itd be prying into kanji's shadow stuff but he was kinda goin thru the same crisis but he was gettin shit on it a lot becuz he liked knitting and stuff
and i was one of those ppl givin him shit for it, sorry 2 say (i've apologized to him!!)
so like, that was the hurdle i had to get through to even accept that i was... well, that i was like that, u know? that i could see that guys weren't just good lookin but like, that i was attracted to them.
[ a pause and then. ]
ugh sry i didnt mean to write a novel! it was basically just... well, as Rise said. "Are they cute or are they *cute*?" and struggling to figure out if it was the latter since, y'know, we got eyeballs. we can see when someone's good-lookin lol once i realized it was yeah, they're just as hot and attractive as girls then it was just... accepting it.
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Date: 2019-10-26 12:50 am (UTC)um, it was... kind of a lot of things? i mean, firstly i think i liked both for a long time but i was in like
super deep denial and i needed to get over that first. growin up, ur told its not rite and stuff, u know? but like... well i cant go into detail since itd be prying into kanji's shadow stuff but he was kinda goin thru the same crisis but he was gettin shit on it a lot becuz he liked knitting and stuff
and i was one of those ppl givin him shit for it, sorry 2 say (i've apologized to him!!)
so like, that was the hurdle i had to get through to even accept that i was... well, that i was like that, u know? that i could see that guys weren't just good lookin but like, that i was attracted to them.
[ a pause and then. ]
ugh sry i didnt mean to write a novel! it was basically just... well, as Rise said. "Are they cute or are they *cute*?" and struggling to figure out if it was the latter since, y'know, we got eyeballs. we can see when someone's good-lookin lol once i realized it was yeah, they're just as hot and attractive as girls then it was just... accepting it.