[ the reply is actually almost immediate, because while it took some time for him to figure out exactly what it is he wanted to hear, he also realized exactly why her explanations didn't feel like explanations to him. ]
because you said i had to let you explain first but then you started stalling, it's in your first text chie. because that isn't the apology or the explanation i was looking for. i wanted to know why you thought i wasn't your friend, or that i only acted friendly when i was bored and not with saki. why you even felt the need to bring saki into this when she's been dead for over a year and what she even has to do with this. you didn't even tell me how i had been ignoring you because i haven't. apparently i ignored you deliberately the "first time" you kicked me? what, you get to decide what i was doing? i have no idea what you're talking about and how any of that makes me believe you're at all sorry for what you did and said to me.
[ she did say she was sorry now for what she said on the beach, he can acknowledge that. but it felt so hollow now with all that stuff she said before. ]
i don't want to hear how sorry you are for having mental issues. that's all you've been doing. you're telling me you're sorry for being an angry and spiteful person, because you have these... these issues or whatever? because you wanted to feel less terrible so you took it out on me?
that you placed this expectation on me and i disappointed you? well whoop-de-friggin-do Chie, i'm always a disappointment. thank you for reminding me.
yeah, sure, you say you're sorry for hurting me physically and for what you said, but you have been telling me since the very beginning of the this text chain that it's all because of your issues and what some doctor is telling you?
like
[ the audio comes on, because he needs her to understand how serious he's being, text just doesn't convey that and he feels like they're just going in circles. his voice is quiet and shaking as he takes a careful breath. ]
...look.
Chie I don't care about what your doctor is telling you or what your bad patterns are or whatever.
All I care about is that you actually believe I'm your friend, that you don't believe I'm only friendly to you when I want something out of it. Nowhere in your gigantic novel of texts did you say "I'm sorry for hurting your feelings and making you feel like we aren't friends."
[ his voice breaks a little here and there's a slight sniffle and the sound of cloth swiping over his face. ]
You haven't even reassured me that we're still friends.
[ he takes a deep breath, cursing slightly because dammit, he was trying to not get so emotional but whoops, that failed. he cuts the audio. ]
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because you said i had to let you explain first but then you started stalling, it's in your first text chie. because that isn't the apology or the explanation i was looking for. i wanted to know why you thought i wasn't your friend, or that i only acted friendly when i was bored and not with saki. why you even felt the need to bring saki into this when she's been dead for over a year and what she even has to do with this. you didn't even tell me how i had been ignoring you because i haven't. apparently i ignored you deliberately the "first time" you kicked me? what, you get to decide what i was doing? i have no idea what you're talking about and how any of that makes me believe you're at all sorry for what you did and said to me.
[ she did say she was sorry now for what she said on the beach, he can acknowledge that. but it felt so hollow now with all that stuff she said before. ]
i don't want to hear how sorry you are for having mental issues. that's all you've been doing. you're telling me you're sorry for being an angry and spiteful person, because you have these... these issues or whatever? because you wanted to feel less terrible so you took it out on me?
that you placed this expectation on me and i disappointed you? well whoop-de-friggin-do Chie, i'm always a disappointment. thank you for reminding me.
yeah, sure, you say you're sorry for hurting me physically and for what you said, but you have been telling me since the very beginning of the this text chain that it's all because of your issues and what some doctor is telling you?
like
[ the audio comes on, because he needs her to understand how serious he's being, text just doesn't convey that and he feels like they're just going in circles. his voice is quiet and shaking as he takes a careful breath. ]
...look.
Chie I don't care about what your doctor is telling you or what your bad patterns are or whatever.
All I care about is that you actually believe I'm your friend, that you don't believe I'm only friendly to you when I want something out of it. Nowhere in your gigantic novel of texts did you say "I'm sorry for hurting your feelings and making you feel like we aren't friends."
[ his voice breaks a little here and there's a slight sniffle and the sound of cloth swiping over his face. ]
You haven't even reassured me that we're still friends.
[ he takes a deep breath, cursing slightly because dammit, he was trying to not get so emotional but whoops, that failed. he cuts the audio. ]